New Day

New day sunlight plays across your window
An old soul song on plays on my alarm clock radio
Dreams that played on my mind a short time ago
Now forgotten blurs like memories that I will never know

And just when I get so lonesome I cant breathe
An anchor man screams WAR! on the news on my tv
So I think and try to grasp just where my life should be
And realize our parents lived their twenties with a war on their tvs

I want to walk alone somewhere to the lakeside
Skip a stone for every close friend that has already died
And if I dig deep I can think back to the last time I had cried
A close friend laying in a casket after a drunken 3am ride

I falter and fall through another boring work shift
And I don’t even care why Im here to begin with
Take my paycheck spend it all on things to cope
And deal with life’s bullshit and the unhinging lack of hope

And just when Ive had enough that I must scream
Self medication knocks me down and I don’t ever even dream
And I could cry...
But its all locked up way down deep inside.