XOXO

She told me that I’m so cold I must be a vampire
She says my heart is frozen solid and I can’t feel anymore

I knew it must be true because I feel dead inside
A troubled alcoholic bent on unintentional suicide

She has already said she’d stay away from me
She broke her promise once and went away with me

We smiled and laughed and I felt like home again
When we returned somehow I fell further off the other end

Now I see her on occasion from my window sill
When she comes close to me she tells me I look ill

I lost my point of reference on my future
The day I lost her heart or maybe a little sooner

I avoid looking at photos of her my walls
I haven’t taken them down since I put them up last fall

One day I’ll box your pictures and send them out to sea
Until that day I’ll just remain a creep

Its easy to avoid myself just like you avoided me
Then one day maybe I can get some fucking sleep